Honestly....I don't know what your problem is, anymore. You treat me like shit, I constantly feel like you use me, and you always act like you're too busy to spend time with me. Your life isn't that important....I know you're stressed, and I know you have family issues going around, but that's no excuse for how you're acting. I've never treated you like this....not once. I never refused to talk to you on the phone for a week because "I have things that I need to do" when really, you just sit on the computer all day. All you do is take pictures. I support you to an extent, but when you constantly push me back, in order to make time for Flickr and Tumblr, I lose so much respect for you. And it's sad....it's really sad, because I love you more then anything in this life. And no matter how many times you say you can, you just can't see it....you refuse to see it, and it hurts. A lot.

We've been together for a year....a year of constant struggle, jealousy, boy/girl issues, school, family troubles.....a year through all of that. We met. We fell in love. And now we're responsible for each other. My Uncle got offered a job in Connecticut 40 minutes from you, when he was all the way down in North Carolina. He offered a place in his house for me to stay and go to college when I graduate in a few months. This is a working miracle happening right before your eyes. I remember the list you made a long time ago, of things you wanna do or see before you die. And witnessing a miracle was one of them. And it's happening right now, and you don't even see it. You're so caught up in your life, you can't take 5 minutes to breathe and witness what's going on here. We haven't met once. For the year we've been dating. And now, I'll be seeing you in a little over a month. Time is getting so close, and I'm getting so eager and excited to see you, and hold you, and kiss you. I can't wait to hold your hand, and walk around town with you and show you off, and take you out on a date, and lay down with you in bed for hours non-stop. Every time I think about it, I get the biggest smile across my face. People will always ask me why I'm smiling. That's how noticeable it is. That's how excited I am.
And you can't even acknowledge it. Obviously, the fact we only have a month left, doesn't phase you. You're hurting me, our relationship, and most importantly, yourself. And all this could go away if you just trust me....trust me, and have faith in us. Swallow your pride when we fight, stay silent when I yell at you, listen when we talk. Come home from school and lay down and talk to me like you used too instead of getting online. It's the only way.....but you don't want too. You won't let it happen. You're creating a wall in between yourself and I, and I wanna knock it down so bad, but a relationship takes two people. I can't decide what you do, in the end.
I don't know what's going on. I don't know what our future has in store. I just know I wanna be with you, I wanna spend every waking moment with you, because this is love. We need space sometimes, sure. But....I love you. Every minute away from you is torture. That's not unhealthy, that's just my feelings for you. They're strong....very strong. And it hurts that you can't realize it...
I'm just praying that sometime soon....you'll see what you have. And by Spring Break, we'll be more then okay. And we'll make the best out of this experience that's to come.