People these days all act like their "Talents" are their life. It's almost pathetic.
Actually, no. It is pathetic. okay, I play instruments and I sing and stuff, and Yes...I can admit it's a huge part of my life, but I've been around it my whole life, and I actually wanna do something that involves music as a career.
I have a right to say it's my life.
People have no reason to act like it's their life if they just started, because you have never had to go through difficulties and troubles that time brings.
I don't like it when people brag or go on and on about their talent.
If it's not my talent, obviously I'm not gonna understand anything you talk about, but that's okay. You go ahead and ramble about it, while I act like I care. Really, it's okay.
I'm not mad at people. I think if you have your own talent, that's cool. Just...keep it to yourself and don't feel the need to spread it.
At that point it makes you look conceited.
I'm not gonna ramble on about this subject, I just needed to vent.
Monday, August 31, 2009
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Caution: A Broken Road Lays Ahead
Do you ever get the feeling that something horrible is just waiting for you a few steps down the road?
Well, that's how I'm feeling right now. And whenever I get feelings like this, they're usually always right, and that kinda scares me.
It's kinda like a deep gut feeling, while your heart is shouting "Take cover!" I just can't begin to describe it, but I'm sure all of you can tell where I'm coming from, right? Whenever I get feelings like this, it kinda makes me think more passionately about my life. I like to think about my goals, my future, my past...it all clusters together in a big cloud of life. I guess that part isn't normal, but hey, what's normal anyways? I tend to listen to music, read, or even clean my room to get my mind off of things. For the most part, it works, and I'm happy for that. But...it's kinda like alcohol. No matter how much you drink, when you're sober again, your problems are still staring you in the face, and they won't disappear until you attack the problem head on.
My first step: Find the problem.
Well, that's how I'm feeling right now. And whenever I get feelings like this, they're usually always right, and that kinda scares me.
It's kinda like a deep gut feeling, while your heart is shouting "Take cover!" I just can't begin to describe it, but I'm sure all of you can tell where I'm coming from, right? Whenever I get feelings like this, it kinda makes me think more passionately about my life. I like to think about my goals, my future, my past...it all clusters together in a big cloud of life. I guess that part isn't normal, but hey, what's normal anyways? I tend to listen to music, read, or even clean my room to get my mind off of things. For the most part, it works, and I'm happy for that. But...it's kinda like alcohol. No matter how much you drink, when you're sober again, your problems are still staring you in the face, and they won't disappear until you attack the problem head on.
My first step: Find the problem.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Strong and Independent
I really don't understand people. Sometimes when I think I do, I really don't.
I don't understand how some people could be so easy....so vulnerable, so simple to give into pressures. I just simply don't understand it.
My Dad always raised me to be a strong person. To not let people walk all over me, and I thank him for that.
I don't find it hard to stand up for the things I believe in, I really don't.
I don't find it hard to say no, when someone asks me a ridiculous request.
And, yes, I know not everyone is like me, I'm aware of this. But, really, it's not that hard to say no.
I believe if you truly love somebody, you'll do anything for them. Even if it means change.
But change is just not simple for some people. Some people are so stubborn, and they love the life they live so much, that they won't give it up for anyone. Not even someone they love.
Even when they know the life their living in, will only destroy them later on in life.
People these days are just so...hard-headed. And, Sure. Ask anyone, I'm a very hard-headed person, but not to the point were I refuse to change for someone I love. That's simple for me.
But, on the other hand, that's just the kind of person I am. I'm very loyal. Maybe even too loyal.
Maybe I should start acting like I have no idea what the hell I'm doing.
I have too much pride, though. I believe I'm too intelligent to fall for things like that.
I honestly believe I'm too mature for high school. I never fall into drama, I never fight, I never start anything.
I have myself, and my group of friends to get me through high school, and that's it. And that's all I need, and that's all I want.
I don't worry about "making memories" by partying, or drinking. I have the rest of my life to make memories. Memories that will actually mean something to me, not some stupid party. I want to live a good, clean life. I wanna keep my mind open, and my imagination fresh. I wanna be the one who gives inspiration, not the one who needs it.
I don't know, maybe at this point I'm just rambling.
All I'm saying: Live a long, clean, fresh life. Stay strong, don't give into peer pressure, and always make sure to follow your heart. It might lead you somewhere you've never thought you'd end up.
I don't understand how some people could be so easy....so vulnerable, so simple to give into pressures. I just simply don't understand it.
My Dad always raised me to be a strong person. To not let people walk all over me, and I thank him for that.
I don't find it hard to stand up for the things I believe in, I really don't.
I don't find it hard to say no, when someone asks me a ridiculous request.
And, yes, I know not everyone is like me, I'm aware of this. But, really, it's not that hard to say no.
I believe if you truly love somebody, you'll do anything for them. Even if it means change.
But change is just not simple for some people. Some people are so stubborn, and they love the life they live so much, that they won't give it up for anyone. Not even someone they love.
Even when they know the life their living in, will only destroy them later on in life.
People these days are just so...hard-headed. And, Sure. Ask anyone, I'm a very hard-headed person, but not to the point were I refuse to change for someone I love. That's simple for me.
But, on the other hand, that's just the kind of person I am. I'm very loyal. Maybe even too loyal.
Maybe I should start acting like I have no idea what the hell I'm doing.
I have too much pride, though. I believe I'm too intelligent to fall for things like that.
I honestly believe I'm too mature for high school. I never fall into drama, I never fight, I never start anything.
I have myself, and my group of friends to get me through high school, and that's it. And that's all I need, and that's all I want.
I don't worry about "making memories" by partying, or drinking. I have the rest of my life to make memories. Memories that will actually mean something to me, not some stupid party. I want to live a good, clean life. I wanna keep my mind open, and my imagination fresh. I wanna be the one who gives inspiration, not the one who needs it.
I don't know, maybe at this point I'm just rambling.
All I'm saying: Live a long, clean, fresh life. Stay strong, don't give into peer pressure, and always make sure to follow your heart. It might lead you somewhere you've never thought you'd end up.
Life, School and Church
Jeeze, it feels like a while since I posted a blog. I recently got my new laptop, so it's been taking me a few days to upload all the music, pictures, firewalls, etc.
Anyways, life is going pretty steady right now. Or so it feels. My Uncle will be coming up this Wednesday (hopefully) So we can go back-to-school shopping, which I'm excited for. The thought of new clothes excites me, is that weird?
I'm not sure if I'm ready to start school, honestly. I thought I was, until I had to go inside my school yesterday to pick up my registration forms. Then reality hit me, and I noticed I don't really wanna go back. Even though it's my Senior year, and this year counts more then my whole school life. I'll be taking school seriously, while trying to balance my relationships with family and friends. I already made my mind up about school dances, this year. I haven't been to a school dance since I was in 6th grade. That's going to change. I'm gonna go to every school dance this year. Even if I'm sick and I have to drag myself out of bed. I'm going.
Ah, So, on another note, church has been pretty interesting. We've been having a huge move of God, and so many things are changing, I swear I'm getting whiplash. It's for a good cause, though. I believe religion is important in a persons life. It's always good to believe in a higher power, and to have faith and hope in a new life, and a new beginning.
My friend Josh will be coming over, tonight. Knowing us, we'll go rent a few of the worst movies you've ever seen, get a couple energy drinks, and chill for the night.
There's a church lock-in we're going too, tomorrow. I'm excited because my friend Erik is going to fix my new laptop. I can't seem to transfer my i-Tunes library, and that bothers me.
Well, enough of my rambling.
Until next time, Blogspot.
Anyways, life is going pretty steady right now. Or so it feels. My Uncle will be coming up this Wednesday (hopefully) So we can go back-to-school shopping, which I'm excited for. The thought of new clothes excites me, is that weird?
I'm not sure if I'm ready to start school, honestly. I thought I was, until I had to go inside my school yesterday to pick up my registration forms. Then reality hit me, and I noticed I don't really wanna go back. Even though it's my Senior year, and this year counts more then my whole school life. I'll be taking school seriously, while trying to balance my relationships with family and friends. I already made my mind up about school dances, this year. I haven't been to a school dance since I was in 6th grade. That's going to change. I'm gonna go to every school dance this year. Even if I'm sick and I have to drag myself out of bed. I'm going.
Ah, So, on another note, church has been pretty interesting. We've been having a huge move of God, and so many things are changing, I swear I'm getting whiplash. It's for a good cause, though. I believe religion is important in a persons life. It's always good to believe in a higher power, and to have faith and hope in a new life, and a new beginning.
My friend Josh will be coming over, tonight. Knowing us, we'll go rent a few of the worst movies you've ever seen, get a couple energy drinks, and chill for the night.
There's a church lock-in we're going too, tomorrow. I'm excited because my friend Erik is going to fix my new laptop. I can't seem to transfer my i-Tunes library, and that bothers me.
Well, enough of my rambling.
Until next time, Blogspot.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
I'm Giving Up
"Letting go doesn't mean giving up, but rather accepting that there are things that cannot be."
That quote is so true, and I think I'm gonna follow it.
Honestly, I'm sick of the way my life is right now. I seem to always be trying to make people happy, and satisfy them. I'm done with that, I could care less.
People do what they wanna do, and I have no effect over that.
I just have to keep the bad people out of my life, it's the only way.
It's not rude, it's not ignorant, it's just playing it smart.
Having people like that in your life is unhealthy, and I don't want that to be me.
I've simply given my best, and I guess it's not enough.
I can admit defeat, it's not hard for me. I'm not really a sore loser. Not as much as I'm hard headed.
And, honestly, I'm not gonna regret it one bit. I just gotta keep moving forward.
This is life. Even though I really wish I had an instructional manual, but it doesn't work like that.
I just wanna make sure I get a good education, a great paying job, and then I wanna find a wife, and start a family. I want that more then anything, and I'm not gonna let anything get in the way of that.
I'm not gonna let someone tell me what I can and cannot do.
I'm sick of those people. I'm sick of the people who crave attention and affection.
I'm sick of needy people.
I wanna get rid of them all.
I think it's only safe for me to hang around strong people. Like me.
They're the true inspiration.
And from now on, I think that's what I'm gonna do.
That quote is so true, and I think I'm gonna follow it.
Honestly, I'm sick of the way my life is right now. I seem to always be trying to make people happy, and satisfy them. I'm done with that, I could care less.
People do what they wanna do, and I have no effect over that.
I just have to keep the bad people out of my life, it's the only way.
It's not rude, it's not ignorant, it's just playing it smart.
Having people like that in your life is unhealthy, and I don't want that to be me.
I've simply given my best, and I guess it's not enough.
I can admit defeat, it's not hard for me. I'm not really a sore loser. Not as much as I'm hard headed.
And, honestly, I'm not gonna regret it one bit. I just gotta keep moving forward.
This is life. Even though I really wish I had an instructional manual, but it doesn't work like that.
I just wanna make sure I get a good education, a great paying job, and then I wanna find a wife, and start a family. I want that more then anything, and I'm not gonna let anything get in the way of that.
I'm not gonna let someone tell me what I can and cannot do.
I'm sick of those people. I'm sick of the people who crave attention and affection.
I'm sick of needy people.
I wanna get rid of them all.
I think it's only safe for me to hang around strong people. Like me.
They're the true inspiration.
And from now on, I think that's what I'm gonna do.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Home Is Where The Heart Is
Ugh, I can't believe summer is almost over, and I have to go back home. I was starting to enjoy Indiana a lot. I mean, it's pretty peaceful most of the time, and it's beautiful at night. I'm not ready to go back home, because then I'd have to go back to reality. I think that's the worst for everybody. Nobody ever wants to go back to reality. We like the thought of being able to stay in a moderate place, away from all the troubles. At least, I do. When I go back, I'll have to unpack, and get ready to go school shopping. Which, isn't horrible. But, that just means school is getting closer. My Senior year, I'll have to make it count.
I really hate being the only guy in my immediate family, though.
I always have to be the one who packs and unpacks the car. Which, I'm not one to whine all the time, but when it's 90 degrees out, and my mother basically packs a portable bathroom, it's really exhausting work, sometimes.
The thing about visiting my Grandma is this: You always leave with more things you came with. But, I guess that's the basic rule of vacations, after all.
The car is going to be so crowded, I hate it.
Oh, well. I shouldn't complain, life is pretty good for me right now, I suppose.
Well, I better end this blog, and go get my stuff together for tomorrow morning.
I'll make sure to blog when I get things all settled in at home.
I really hate being the only guy in my immediate family, though.
I always have to be the one who packs and unpacks the car. Which, I'm not one to whine all the time, but when it's 90 degrees out, and my mother basically packs a portable bathroom, it's really exhausting work, sometimes.
The thing about visiting my Grandma is this: You always leave with more things you came with. But, I guess that's the basic rule of vacations, after all.
The car is going to be so crowded, I hate it.
Oh, well. I shouldn't complain, life is pretty good for me right now, I suppose.
Well, I better end this blog, and go get my stuff together for tomorrow morning.
I'll make sure to blog when I get things all settled in at home.
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Life as I know it
Ugh...So, I don't really have something important to blog about, but I'm in the mood to ramble, because I love writing.
My life as I know it, is either falling apart or coming together. As of right now, I'm not sure...
Whoa, Nicolette is calling, hold on. :]
Okay, anyways.
I don't really know what direction my life is heading. I'm kinda afraid of what my life has in store.
I mean, I know I'll always have people on Earth who care about me and love me, but that doesn't save me from the hardships I'll have to go through. I'm afraid of losing people, I'm afraid of failing, I'm afraid of many things. But, I guess as long as I have some inspiration and motivation involved in my life, anything can be possible.
After all, this is what life consists of.
My life as I know it, is either falling apart or coming together. As of right now, I'm not sure...
Whoa, Nicolette is calling, hold on. :]
Okay, anyways.
I don't really know what direction my life is heading. I'm kinda afraid of what my life has in store.
I mean, I know I'll always have people on Earth who care about me and love me, but that doesn't save me from the hardships I'll have to go through. I'm afraid of losing people, I'm afraid of failing, I'm afraid of many things. But, I guess as long as I have some inspiration and motivation involved in my life, anything can be possible.
After all, this is what life consists of.
Welcome to Blogspot
So, I'm new to this whole "Blogspot" thing, and I'm not entirely sure, but I think I have the hang of it. I'll basically be posting my life on a basis in which I find comfortable. I'm not even sure when my real blog post will be, I'm just gonna go with the flow, and see where things take me.
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